A: What you’re describing isn’t unusual. I’ve worked with Jumpers experiencing full scale paranoid episodes relating to this very thing, and if you read through the questions in this portal you’ll see versions of it.
When someone begins seeing through the structures of the false self, sometimes this type of reaction forms and it becomes a kind of snag. Why would reality be set up this way? Why would humans develop an illusion of self? Is this some kind of cosmic joke? And the emotional tone is exactly what you’re describing as a sense of being trapped, or targeted. A feeling that something unfair has been done to you or to humanity as a whole.
There are a couple things to get here that may help.